this experience made me want to ... I've been thinking about the deficit model and saviorism and wanting to come back and be able to tell the story and how we tell the story, because Sarah said about this lets us do the work. And is that about doing the work that's funding? Coming back to get more money, to do something like this. So we can come back and claim credit and show the pictures and whatever, what does that mean? And all this has made me realize that I want to do, this is going to sound weird, but I want to do less better. I don't want to feel I have to cover quite as much ground. I want to go build more meaningful relationships, be a better partner and do less better.